During the summer vacation in 2017, I
spent most of the time to consider taking a year time off from school. I wasn't
satisfied with my life in KMLA anymore. Honestly, at the end of the last
semester, I just wanted to escape the school which gave me endless anxiety and
extreme disharmony only. There were too many events I started and too many
complicated stories I related to. I met too many friends and I had too many
unnecessary relations for last one and half years.
That
was the moment I recalled numerous decisions I made after entering KMLA.
Let's
imagine. What if I failed to enter KMLA? I must enter the high school near by
my hometown. My life must be happier than my life in KMLA since I had a close
relationship with the lots of students. But, my academic growth must be slower
and I couldn't dream to study abroad too. So, my first decision, entering KMLA,
wasn't the start of my problem.
What if I dropped out few meaningless clubs in freshmen year? Numerous club activities also were one of the factors that made me unhappy. At the first moment, my passionate mind tried to participate every project in every club. However, my academic life and club life couldn't exist at once. The more time I spent my time in club, the less time I had on my study. But, club activities were part of my KMLA life and even though I gave up my academic life a little, I got few closet friends. That fact makes me satisfy today.
What if I dropped out few meaningless clubs in freshmen year? Numerous club activities also were one of the factors that made me unhappy. At the first moment, my passionate mind tried to participate every project in every club. However, my academic life and club life couldn't exist at once. The more time I spent my time in club, the less time I had on my study. But, club activities were part of my KMLA life and even though I gave up my academic life a little, I got few closet friends. That fact makes me satisfy today.
Then,
what if I didn't participate GLPS in the summer and winter vacation in 2016 and
had a free time to recharge myself? Sadly, participating GLPS gave huge
pressure on my academic school life. That is undeniable truth. I was in the
school while my friends studied in their hometown. But, both GLPS camps were
unforgettable experience to me. I experienced unique and unbelievable three
weeks with great graduated students from KMLA and the camp students. In
particular, after having the last winter camp, I became friend with one
graduated student who still helps me whenever I need her and wherever she
lived. Obviously, two GLPS camps were harsh experiences but not painful
periods.
At
last, what if I wasn't the member of student council or didn't try to impeach
the head of executive council? In last semester, I had to endure all critics
and complains from students about my behavior as a member of student council. Whether
my behavior was right or not, my attempt to impeach the head of executive
council was purely for the advance in KMLA. But, it was the most daunting
challenge I faced with. I tried to leave the school several times and until
now, my life in last semester gave a huge pressure on me.
Surprisingly, I’m still KMLA students
in 21st Wave, not 22nd Wave. You might guess the reason I’m
still in this disharmonized place. Yes, my life still exists in eternal pain and if I can, I definitely wants to escape the school. But, what if I leave the school? It could be the solution?
NO. Once in my high school time, I should spend three years in KMLA whether I like it or not. Then, I must choose to get through the harshness rather than running away. So, I return this place and I will accomplish something I want.
